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I want to tell you about listening to my body and the dialogue I've been having with it in recent months 🙂

Disconnection from the Body: An Old Habit

For years, I've been saying that I have no patience for my body, that it and its needs mainly interfere with me (except for food, food is good!), and I don't know how to listen to it or make space for its discomfort in various situations:

Managing at home with the children
Different sexual situations
Day-to-day activities

I grew up in a home where you don't get sick and don't rest, because that's for the weak.

Usually, I make choices based on my semi-conscious rationalizations - what would be best for as many people as possible, so they'll be satisfied with me 🙄 - and I sweep away with anger and impatience any bodily sensation that might signal "pay attention to yourself for a moment."

This caused me to:

Repeatedly cross my own boundaries
Hugely miss my basic needs

First Attempts to Connect with the Body

So for several years now, I've been a dedicated student trying to change this, and it's incredibly difficult because the mind tries to take control and tell itself to listen to the body, but still, until recently, the body wasn't really a party to this matter 😅

Deep Listening: Letting the Body Speak

In recent months, I started:

Turning off my mind
Telling it it's okay to rest
Talking directly with my body

I'm really paying attention, not mind-attention, to what the body experiences, and when any sensations arise, I simply listen.

I discovered a voice that:

Rises from the belly
Passes through the chest
Guides me
Finally rises to the head
Says "hi" to the mind
Expresses a desire or need

This voice always asks something from me, not from others 😊

I made a choice to listen to this voice no matter what.

The Wonder of Listening: Being Intuitive

For me, it's a wonder to be here. As someone who perceives herself as extremely rational and emotional (no, it's not contradictory) - it's surreal to experience being remarkably intuitive and emotional.

Impressions so far:

It's wonderful! Here's what I've achieved:

✨ Connect much better with my feelings✨ Give them space✨ Make choices that are much more precise for me✨ Dare to make choices that might frustrate others✨ Remember that their frustration is not mine

Personal Growth

I manage to have empathy for myself even when it's difficult
When I'm empathetic to myself, I demand this empathy much less from others
Found motivation to learn tools for connecting with my body in relation to menstruation
My sexuality is precise at levels I didn't know were possible

💭 Share with me in the comments:

How do you listen to your body?

What are your challenges and successes in this journey??